Hello and welcome to my blog. I am the Michelle of Mostly Michelle Marie or MMM, for short. I am a lover of words, phrases and the power of the written word, in general.
I have Bipolar I Disorder so that provides a great deal of material to write about, what with all the feelings, thoughts and compulsions that accompany it. It is, for me, a great part of my identity, the answer to “why” in most situations. It’s a gift wrapped in a curse and packaged in a whole lot of pain with enough moments of elation to keep me from giving up. It’s my brain, my wonderful, wacky and wondrous mind machine. It’s my rollercoaster, my runaway train, my rock opera by Rammstein. It’s my salvation, my soul’s devastation and my inspiration to go beyond the pain and find my way to my happily ever after.
I turned 50 last year and I have to tell you, I am loving this age so much more than my 20-something year old self could have ever imagined; I would not say I am at peace with my disorder, but I will say there is acceptance. I no longer rage against something that is so hugely out of my control, but I do understand I have a responsibility to myself and those around me to take ownership of it. I understand that it’s not all about me and no one else is responsible for how I feel or for managing my disease.
That’s my first post, folks! Thanks for stopping by and I hope to keep things interesting, informative and hopefully inspirational and bringing of an occasional LOL.